Because you're worth it

Hi guys!
Okay so for the past few months I have been dealing with self doubts. I was unhappy with my body,how I look just everything! I used to like a guy I thought he liked me but I found out he's just a really sweet guy seeking out for attention. In other word he's a player. So anyway. I had the BIGGEST breakdown ever! Some days I didnt want to eat. Other days I eat too much. It really depends on my mood. One day I thought "Okay I need to settle this,it has been bugging me for months and I cant live like this anymore" So yeah I talked to my family and friends about it. And I prayed a lot too! So I found out that my main problem was that I didnt have self respect towards myself. Okay so my main objective today is to help YOU gain self respect for yourself. So im giving out tips that has helped me.

1)You are the CEO of your own life
You need to always keep that in mind.YOU need to take charge of your own life. If you dont like something about yourself or the situation you are in. You need to get yourself out of it. This may sound scary to you but you will lose a lot of friends but its okay. When you get rid of the negative people in your life. Automatically the positive ones will appear in your life. Thats just how the universe works. Okay? :)

2)Exercise and eat healthy
I cannot stress more about this. You see I was afraid of people calling me health freak or whatever. Just because I dont eat the food that they eat it doesnt mean anything. If your friends say mean things about it. Guess what? You are doing it for YOURSELF. In the end you are in control of your own life. Eating healthy will make you feel good about yourself. From what I observed beautiful girls even models for example,Miranda Kerr. She reallyyy takes care of her diet. So if you want to be having great skin and body like hers. You need to change your lifestyle. Pronto.

3)Happiness is a choice!
You probably have heard this before. Dont rely on someone for your own happiness and self worth. Only you can be responsible for that. And here's a tip never date a guy who dates you for your body. Trust me you will end up getting hurt. So thats all for now. But I promise you ill be back for more!

Stay tuned
Have a beautiful day. :)

I still remember this moment

Presenting

 Divas of Dstarz 2012

 We worked hard we played harder. I say find your passion,set goals for yourself and work hard.

We were playing dead. Did it work?

 Oh yes,meet Ng Lay Mun. She was the one who inspired me to work hard and to never give up. We were base partners for two years. Oh and the girl in blue is Ruheesha! 

 Stunt group 2012. We motivate each other. Sure we had our ups and downs but I think thats what made us closer. I could literally just say and do anything infront of them.

Always aim for the moon,even if you miss,you'll land among the stars

Lastly I am just honoured to be part of the team. Being in the team taught me teamwork,discipline,leadership and how to train and act like a champion. So thank you for the memories,guys.

Sunday morning

Getting my priorities right. 

No matter what it takes.

What I have learned so far

10 things I've learnt this year

1)You will fail along your journey to victory

Elite athletes/winners hate losing in fact they go all out to win but they are not afraid to fail. 

2)You have to stand up for what you believe in

Sometimes your friends will tell you the image you're trying to potray is old fashioned. You will not be accepted in the community. As long as what you believe in has good moral values,things that can make the world a better place. Fight for it.

3)Listen to your heart

Have you ever done something bad that would make you feel so guilty after doing it? For example maybe lying to your parents? Well that is your heart telling you that what you are doing is not a good thing to do. Learn to listen to it.

4)Pray

Yes pray. You may think that you dont need it but sometimes when you are struggling with something,when you think that there is no one around that can help you. Sometimes maybe even your parents are not around! Never lose faith,know that He is always with us. He listens to our problems. 

5)Losing is not a bad thing

People often only look at the grand champion. It makes the other competitors,first runner ups/second feel less important. You have to find the good in the bad. Losing is a wonderful thing. It teaches us many things that winning cant. If you dont learn anything from losing,you're not improving yourself. Think about it,a gymnast may lose in his first Olympic competition but he went home work on the areas he needed to work on and became the all around champion on his second Olympic competition. Losing teaches us how to be a better competitor. 

More to come! 

Stand up for what you believe in. Or remain as a coward. 

Finding my inner strength

Im still the same girl thats very curious about life.

Growing up my parents never forced me to do anything. Like my friends,I wasnt enrolled to any classes. My mother was always out of town and my dad he stayed at another place. So I was always with my brother and my maid at home. I have always been active since kindergarten till now in high school. When I was young I would always run around the house,climbed the pole (yes I was really hyper) my maids had trouble keeping up with my energy. One day when I was running around at the park my neighbour saw me and said to my maid. This girl has too much energy. Ofcourse I was 6 afterall. Growing up i've always wanted to try sports so I joined running when I could in standard 4. I was a sprinter back then and I loved the feeling when I was leading and leaving everyone behind me. I felt like I was running from something that was trying to catch me. So I won medals from my running events during my primary school years.

In secondary school,I was lucky enough to be studying in Sri Aman. It was my dream school. It was a legacy for my family to go there. The girls I mean. In my first year in Sri Aman,I wanted a new identity. So I made friends with some people and I felt like I had to grow up fast. I went out a lot. I was having culture shock. Everything was so different. I met a lot of different kind of people. I mixed with the wrong crowd. I felt like I have something to give. I wanted to be different. I was finding my true self. I got into a lot of trouble but I think everything happens for a reason. And then 2010 came,it was a big year for me. I had to face my PMR year. I slacked off a lot within the first two years of my high school year. So I knew if I wanted the 8A's I had to study hard. I was still trying to find myself. I couldnt concentrate I struggled. So one day in Ramadhan,my mom bought me a book about a girl named Nik Madihah. She came from a poor family and managed to score 20A's for her SPM. It was the way she handled things that caught my attention. I learnt that if I had doubts and uneasy things in my mind. I could always talk to God. So I worked hard for the exam and scored my 8A's. Alhamdulillah. Syukur kepada Allah. So then I wanted to be active in school again. I joined cheerleading. At first my mom didnt want to let me join,I was convinced that she wasnt so sure that I could balance school and cheerleading. As you  know cheerleading is such a demanding sport. I fell in love with the sport just like that. I wanted to train hard because I wanted to be the best in the world. My team came in 8th place the first year I joined and 3rd this year. It would be a lie if I said I wasnt dissapointed. My goal was always the champion cup but I knew the other girls worked just as hard and our team had a few mistakes. This year,2012 I will be taking SPM. Probably the biggest examination that I have to take yet.  Again I slacked off last year. Maybe I was giving cheer a little too much attention because I wanted to win. I realized now that Education comes first. Cheerleading is second. Im preparing for my exam now. And I hope that I can make my parents proud. Im still finding who I really am. Im still finding the balance in life. I know that Allah will always be on my side guiding my decisions. InsyaAllah I will do my best and I really want to help my family. Now I am ready. My goal now is to get 9A's for my spm and I pray that I could become a better person overall. InsyaAllah.