Forgiveness

I forgive myself for holding on for too long. Its time to let go. 

And I forgive you. 

CheerFreakz!

Get ready for CHEERFREAKZ cheerleaders! Its coming for you! :)

But really?

Why should I please you when I cant even please myself?

Catching my breath

Letting it go.

spm results would be coming out tomorrow. I just hope that I could reach my target but most importantly no matter what my results would be tomorrow I will be grateful because I know I have tried my best despite what ever happened last year. Lessons learned.  and I wish my 95' friends the BEST because we deserve only that.

As Uncle Colin would say it.

You're going to miss my smart ass. 

Are you ready?

I was never a child that gets whatever I want. From young my dad would always say to me.

 "If you want it,you have to earn it"

 He never really spoiled me with new gadgets or whatever. I remember once when I was 12,my friends would be talking about their new handphones and sending music to each other via bluetooth and I would just keep quiet. Someone even laughed at me for not knowing how to use bluetooth. Maybe thats why I was never really interested in new phones or cameras. I didnt understand why he said that to me. 

Believe it or not,when my family went overseas he refused to bring me along. He said that one day I would have to earn my own scholarship and go overseas if I wanted to. Frustrated I cried myself to sleep that night. To be honest,I actually thought it was unfair. However after a few months of working and earning my own money. I now understand why. 

He wanted me to be independent. He wanted me to learn. He wanted me to explore. He wanted me to know my worth and earn everything that I thought I should earn. He wanted a change. He wanted me to grow. 

I dont know why im writing this down. Lets start taking care of ourselves. Lets start doing things that you love,earning things that you love with your own effort is bliss. Now im not talking about saving your pocket money and buying things at the end of the month. Im talking real business. Im talking earning things through your own creativity. Lets do this. Im ready.

Your loss.

No one deserves to be treated like how you are treating me right now. Im done. I deserve to be happy anyway rather than hearing you complain everyday about life. Well suck it up you're a big boy.