I still remember this moment

Presenting

 Divas of Dstarz 2012

 We worked hard we played harder. I say find your passion,set goals for yourself and work hard.

We were playing dead. Did it work?

 Oh yes,meet Ng Lay Mun. She was the one who inspired me to work hard and to never give up. We were base partners for two years. Oh and the girl in blue is Ruheesha! 

 Stunt group 2012. We motivate each other. Sure we had our ups and downs but I think thats what made us closer. I could literally just say and do anything infront of them.

Always aim for the moon,even if you miss,you'll land among the stars

Lastly I am just honoured to be part of the team. Being in the team taught me teamwork,discipline,leadership and how to train and act like a champion. So thank you for the memories,guys.

Sunday morning

Getting my priorities right. 

No matter what it takes.

What I have learned so far

10 things I've learnt this year

1)You will fail along your journey to victory

Elite athletes/winners hate losing in fact they go all out to win but they are not afraid to fail. 

2)You have to stand up for what you believe in

Sometimes your friends will tell you the image you're trying to potray is old fashioned. You will not be accepted in the community. As long as what you believe in has good moral values,things that can make the world a better place. Fight for it.

3)Listen to your heart

Have you ever done something bad that would make you feel so guilty after doing it? For example maybe lying to your parents? Well that is your heart telling you that what you are doing is not a good thing to do. Learn to listen to it.

4)Pray

Yes pray. You may think that you dont need it but sometimes when you are struggling with something,when you think that there is no one around that can help you. Sometimes maybe even your parents are not around! Never lose faith,know that He is always with us. He listens to our problems. 

5)Losing is not a bad thing

People often only look at the grand champion. It makes the other competitors,first runner ups/second feel less important. You have to find the good in the bad. Losing is a wonderful thing. It teaches us many things that winning cant. If you dont learn anything from losing,you're not improving yourself. Think about it,a gymnast may lose in his first Olympic competition but he went home work on the areas he needed to work on and became the all around champion on his second Olympic competition. Losing teaches us how to be a better competitor. 

More to come! 

Stand up for what you believe in. Or remain as a coward. 

Finding my inner strength

Im still the same girl thats very curious about life.

Growing up my parents never forced me to do anything. Like my friends,I wasnt enrolled to any classes. My mother was always out of town and my dad he stayed at another place. So I was always with my brother and my maid at home. I have always been active since kindergarten till now in high school. When I was young I would always run around the house,climbed the pole (yes I was really hyper) my maids had trouble keeping up with my energy. One day when I was running around at the park my neighbour saw me and said to my maid. This girl has too much energy. Ofcourse I was 6 afterall. Growing up i've always wanted to try sports so I joined running when I could in standard 4. I was a sprinter back then and I loved the feeling when I was leading and leaving everyone behind me. I felt like I was running from something that was trying to catch me. So I won medals from my running events during my primary school years.

In secondary school,I was lucky enough to be studying in Sri Aman. It was my dream school. It was a legacy for my family to go there. The girls I mean. In my first year in Sri Aman,I wanted a new identity. So I made friends with some people and I felt like I had to grow up fast. I went out a lot. I was having culture shock. Everything was so different. I met a lot of different kind of people. I mixed with the wrong crowd. I felt like I have something to give. I wanted to be different. I was finding my true self. I got into a lot of trouble but I think everything happens for a reason. And then 2010 came,it was a big year for me. I had to face my PMR year. I slacked off a lot within the first two years of my high school year. So I knew if I wanted the 8A's I had to study hard. I was still trying to find myself. I couldnt concentrate I struggled. So one day in Ramadhan,my mom bought me a book about a girl named Nik Madihah. She came from a poor family and managed to score 20A's for her SPM. It was the way she handled things that caught my attention. I learnt that if I had doubts and uneasy things in my mind. I could always talk to God. So I worked hard for the exam and scored my 8A's. Alhamdulillah. Syukur kepada Allah. So then I wanted to be active in school again. I joined cheerleading. At first my mom didnt want to let me join,I was convinced that she wasnt so sure that I could balance school and cheerleading. As you  know cheerleading is such a demanding sport. I fell in love with the sport just like that. I wanted to train hard because I wanted to be the best in the world. My team came in 8th place the first year I joined and 3rd this year. It would be a lie if I said I wasnt dissapointed. My goal was always the champion cup but I knew the other girls worked just as hard and our team had a few mistakes. This year,2012 I will be taking SPM. Probably the biggest examination that I have to take yet.  Again I slacked off last year. Maybe I was giving cheer a little too much attention because I wanted to win. I realized now that Education comes first. Cheerleading is second. Im preparing for my exam now. And I hope that I can make my parents proud. Im still finding who I really am. Im still finding the balance in life. I know that Allah will always be on my side guiding my decisions. InsyaAllah I will do my best and I really want to help my family. Now I am ready. My goal now is to get 9A's for my spm and I pray that I could become a better person overall. InsyaAllah.