The change starts with me

I think putting the blame on you is not a mature thing for me to do,yet forgiving you and myself is a much harder thing to do. But.. the more I hold on to the past,the grudge I have against you i think its taking its toll on me. Apa guna kalau hidup dengan dendam? The change has to start with me. I must forgive you. Yes you may have hurted me,you may have said mean things to me. You may have called me useless. You may have not abused me physically but you have abused me emotionally and mentally. Im glad I was able to realize it soon enough. You may be close to my friends to my bestfriends infact but that isnt going to change my perception towards you. I forgive you because I love myself enough to let go of the resentment i have against you. If you were to ask me,no there will never be second chances anymore. I will learn to let go. I will learn to move on. I will learn to make myself happy. I will learn to chase my dreams even if you think that its plain stupid. Its my life. I will keep continue to succeed in my life. The change starts with me. Its now or never.


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Hey hi my friends. I have received phone calls and text messages after writing this post. Now dont get me wrong,I didnt write this post just because I want you to symphatize me heck it was never my intention. This post came straight from my heart and mind. However im so happy to know that im not alone in this journey so thank you for the concerned calls. I appreciate every one of it. :) Alhamdulillah.